( it's difficult to be vulnerable, he knows that well — perhaps it's the most difficult with the ones you hold most dear, because it means giving over an opening to be hurt, an achilles' heel to bring down the biggest, the strongest.
it would be so much easier to keep everyone at arm's length, and maybe that's why satoru is so particular with those he lets past his barriers. he would rather keep the walls up, truth be told, because it brings everything down to the bare minimum chance of some measure of fallout.
where the other's fingers had curled around his wrist at the beginning, satoru reaches to loosen that grip and instead twine those fingers with his own; it's something he does without thinking, meeting suguru's gaze as he fights to find the words that come out of him next, and it's such a finite statement — i've lost everything — that for a second he's unsure if he should say what lingers on the back of his tongue or not. )
There's always something to fight for. ( he ends up giving over softly, his voice catching, gone rough around the edges with the emotion he's trying to swallow down. ) Unless I'm nothing to you now.
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YOU'RE DANG RIGHT YOU DIDN'T
Date: 2023-03-28 08:23 pm (UTC)it would be so much easier to keep everyone at arm's length, and maybe that's why satoru is so particular with those he lets past his barriers. he would rather keep the walls up, truth be told, because it brings everything down to the bare minimum chance of some measure of fallout.
where the other's fingers had curled around his wrist at the beginning, satoru reaches to loosen that grip and instead twine those fingers with his own; it's something he does without thinking, meeting suguru's gaze as he fights to find the words that come out of him next, and it's such a finite statement — i've lost everything — that for a second he's unsure if he should say what lingers on the back of his tongue or not. )
There's always something to fight for. ( he ends up giving over softly, his voice catching, gone rough around the edges with the emotion he's trying to swallow down. ) Unless I'm nothing to you now.