( megumi has been so much better for him over the years than he thinks the boy actually knows, especially if he'd felt the need to ask if he was really that important — you are to me — and he thinks, sometimes, that his world might have fallen apart entirely if he hadn't had something else to latch onto.
something else to give him purpose.
he meets his gaze when he pulls back to look at him, and the words out of his mouth strike a chord in him that nearly punches his next breath out of him before it has a chance to do him any good to begin with; it's lonely at the top, isn't it? someone one said, somewhere, and he'd never thought it would matter so much to him, even when he's always been well aware of just how outclassed everyone else is in comparison.
it's lonely at the top, isn't it?
he sighs, and something in him fractures. ) Am I that transparent? (be a mirror, he'd told himself once. don't let them see what's on the inside—
quiet stretches between them for a handful of moments. ) I carried it for so long, and now I don't have it. What good is it being the strongest when what makes me the strongest is gone?
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Date: 2023-03-28 07:24 pm (UTC)something else to give him purpose.
he meets his gaze when he pulls back to look at him, and the words out of his mouth strike a chord in him that nearly punches his next breath out of him before it has a chance to do him any good to begin with; it's lonely at the top, isn't it? someone one said, somewhere, and he'd never thought it would matter so much to him, even when he's always been well aware of just how outclassed everyone else is in comparison.
it's lonely at the top, isn't it?
he sighs, and something in him fractures. ) Am I that transparent? ( be a mirror, he'd told himself once. don't let them see what's on the inside—
quiet stretches between them for a handful of moments. ) I carried it for so long, and now I don't have it. What good is it being the strongest when what makes me the strongest is gone?